Training Wheels

20120723-121620.jpgGuess what? I can confidently say, I experienced all these firsthand. Some I passed with flying colours. Others ? Epic failure. Sometimes, I just lose it. Ended up ranting to God and even putting the blame on him sometimes. Though when I’m calm and clear minded, I know He’s shaping me into a better person. But in the midst of storms and hurricane, I’m not allowed that luxury to reason with myself. And I’m a little ashamed to say, many times now, I let my faith fall off the cliff, or rather take a big dive over the cliff into the rocks below. But God never fails, even when I did. I’m glad no matter how far off the trail I go, He is able to pull me back to the right track. It doesn’t matter if it take days or weeks or months, or even years.

I’ve let myself fall deeper and deeper heading for the sharp jagged rocks for a few years now. So glad I finally managed to grab onto a rope and is now slowly climbing up back to the right path. Pretty sure God threw that rope over to me. I won’t guarantee that I won’t fail some of His tests again in the future. Actually, I’m pretty sure I’ll probably still fail at some of them. But we grow and learn. At least now, I’m gonna try even harder than before to keep my faith, believing God knows the best for me and is training me into the better person I’m supposed to be.

Being on training wheels is always hard, but it will all pay off when the wheels come off.
Sometimes we forget, sometimes we lose faith. But just remember to pick it up and go back to God.

God Spoke

He did. Sunday’s message by Ps. Palan. Right at me.

So many whys asked since last year end. Not understanding why some things happened the way they did. But I stopped, a little while back. I decided not to ask. And everytime I feel the hurt, the pain or the sadness, I don’t question, but I just talk to God. Explaining how I feel, and asking Him to help me in the way He thinks best. Trusting God is better than trusting anyone else, I guess. And very quickly, a sense of peace will usually follow.

But the past Sunday, God answered. Without me asking. A little reminder to myself. God is a loving good Father. And a good Father will do what’s best for His kids. And if He has to discipline them to get them back on the right track, He will do it. It may hurt at the very moment, but in the long run, for the future, He is training His children up to be righteous people of God, with a happy life. Well, I guess I needed a little discipline. Strayed from church for more than 5 years. I suppose God thinks its about time I get my sorry ass back to church and on the right track in life. Sad to say, over the past few years, I have let love, my personal life, gym, studies and etc etc be a huge distracting factor for me. Pulling me further and further away from God. Time to learn to strike a balance. Time to learn my lesson. I guess using the ‘soft encouragement’ way didn’t work for me. Hence the shit that happened. Good discipline. Heh. Well, sad that it had to come to that stage. But happy that, it brought me back to the right track. Brought me back to God. Even happier that, I learned to trust Him even before this message was preached. =)

I still wish some things could go back to the way they were. But God knows what’s best for me. I believe. =) And I need to keep reminding myself, not only now when I haven’t still recovered from the recent wounds, but also in the future whenever I endure hardship, that nothing is accidental with God. A father disciplines his kids only cause he loves them just so much.

“And have you completely forgotten this word of encouragement that addresses you as a father addresses his son? It says, “My son, do not make light of the Lord’s discipline, and do not lose heart when He rebukes you, because the Lord disciplines the one He loves, and He chastens everyone He accepts as His son.” Endure hardship as discipline; God is treating you as His children. For what children are not discipline by their father? If you are not disciplined, and everyone undergoes discipline, then you are not legitimate, not true sons and daughters at all. Moreover, we have all had human fathers who disciplined us and we respected them for it. How much more should we submit to the Father of spirits and live! They discipline us for a little while as they thought best; but God disciplines us for our good, in order that we may share in His holiness. No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it. Therefore, strengthen your feeble arms and weak knees.” – Hebrews 12 : 5-12 (NIV)

Faith Vs. Science

An Atheist Professor of Philosophy was speaking to his class on the problem science has with God, the almighty. He asked one of his God fearing students to stand and…

Professor: You are a Christian aren’t you, son?

Student: Yes, sir.

Professor: You do believe in God, don’t you, son?

Student: Yes, sir.

Professor: Is GOD Good?

Student: Sure.

Professor: Is God all powerful?

Student: Yes.

Professor: My brother died of cancer even though he prayed to God to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But God didn’t. How is this God good then? Hmm?

(Student was silent )

Professor: You can’t answer, can you? Let’s start again, young fella. Is God good?

Student: Yes.

Professor: Is Satan good?

Student: No.

Professor: Where does Satan come from?

Student: From . . . God . . .

Professor: That’s right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?

Student: Yes.

Professor: Evil is everywhere, isn’t it? And God did make everything. Correct?

Student: Yes.

Professor: So who created evil?

(Student did not answer)

Professor: Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don’t they?

Student: Yes, sir.

Professor: So, who created them?

(Student had no answer)

Professor: Science says you have 5 Senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son. Have you ever seen God?

Student: No, sir.

Professor: Tell us if you have ever heard your God?

Student: No, sir.

Professor: Have you ever felt your God, tasted your God, smelt your God? Have you ever had any sensory perception of God for that matter?

Student: No, sir. I’m afraid I haven’t.

Professor: Yet you still believe in Him?

Student: Yes.

Professor: According to empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your God doesn’t exist. What do you say to that, son?

Student: Nothing. I only have my faith.

Professor: Yes, faith. And that is the problem science has.

Student: Professor, is there such a thing as heat?

Professor: Yes.

Student: And is there such a thing as cold?

Professor: Yes.

Student: No, sir. There isn’t.

(The lecture hall became very quiet with this turn of events)

Student: Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, super heat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don’t have anything called cold. We can hit 458 degrees below zero which is no heat, but we can’t go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir. Just the absence of it.

(There was a pin-drop silence in the lecture hall)

Student: What about darkness, professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?

Professor: Yes. What is night if there isn’t darkness?

Student: You’re wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of light. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light. But if you have no light constantly, you have nothing and its called darkness, isn’t it? In reality, darkness isn’t. If it is, you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn’t you?

Professor: So what is the point you are making, young man ?

Student: Sir, my point is your philosophical premise is flawed.

Professor: Flawed? Can you explain how?

Student: Sir, you are working on the premise of duality. You argue there is life and then there is death, a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can’t even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. But these are measurable entities. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life. Just the absence of it. Agreed ? Now tell me, professor, do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?

Professor: If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, yes, of course, I do.

Student: Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?

(The professor shook his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument was going )

Student: Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a scientist but a preacher?

(The lecture hall was in uproar )

Student: Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen your brain, professor?

(The class broke out into laughter )

Student: Is there anyone here who has ever heard your professor’s brain, felt it, touched or smelt it? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures, sir?

(The lecture hall was silent. The professor stared at the student, his face unfathomable)

Professor: I guess you’ll have to take them on faith, son.

Student: That is it sir . . . Exactly! The ink between man & God is FAITH. Our humanness, our love and care of one another, that keeps things on earth alive and moving.

NOTE : That student was Albert Einstein.


A simple poem. Many are familiar with, I’m sure. I myself, know the simple storyline without having to read it. And yet, I sometimes still fall short of my faith during hard times. But every time I read this poem word by word, it never fails to touch my heart when I reach the last line. A little comfort. A gentle reminder.

One night I dreamed a dream.
I was walking along the beach with my Lord.
Across the dark sky flashed scenes from my life.
For each scene, I noticed two sets of footprints in the sands.
One belonging to me, and one to my Lord. 

When the last scene of my life shot before me,
I looked back at the footprints in the sand.
There was only one set of footprints.
I realized that this was at the lowest and saddest times of my life.
This always bothered me and I questioned the Lord about my dilemma.

“Lord, You told me when I decided to follow You,
You would walk with me all the way.
But I’m aware, at the most troublesome times of my life,
there is only one set of footprints.
I just don’t understand why, when I needed You the most,
You leave me.”

He whispered, “My precious child, I love you and I will never leave you,
never, ever, during your trials and testings. 
When you saw only one set of footprints,
it was when I carried you.